What is the DEAL lately?!?!

Here's my conundrum.  In the last week, I have had an assignment in both my Assembly Language and in my second level Computer Science class.  Both have had an aspect of them I COULD NOT figure out, and as a result, the assignments were "incomplete". By this, I mean that I finished the code, and the math was 100% dead on, but on one, I couldn't get the output in one box, it was outputting in 4, and in the other, C++ pointers are making me crazy.  This whole abstract side of programming?  I totally don't get it.  I DO NOT like not understanding.  It makes me feel very stupid, and right now, I'm frustrated, I feel stupid, and worthless because I couldn't get it together in an appropriate time frame so I could have time to ask my Professors questions about what I got stuck on. 


The most frustrating part: because I feel stupid, I totally am not enjoying this right now, and I want to hide from Computer Programming, but in my experience, it's the time I push through the feeling of wanting to give up that really pays off. 


I guess Spring Break (this coming week) was well timed.  I don't intend to look at a Computer Program the whole week.  How depressing am I?  


This was not an issue last semester.  Last semester, I had assignments done 30 minutes after they were assigned.  I did not procrastinate last semester, but this semester, time after time, that's all I've done, and it's very discouraging.  I'm not sure what happened to put me in such a rut, but it's got to stop!  I do have an additional class this semester, that can be a downer sometimes, but I cannot lean on the workload excuse, next semester, my work load is going to be half again as much!  I'm not going to have time for excuses...or much else, really.  With this challenge, I'm starting to seriously doubt my ability to graduate on time (December 2013).  Oh, I'm going to give it all I have, but what if that's not enough?  What if I physically don't have it in me? I could worry and what if all night, but I'm going to go to sleep, since that's something productive.  


Oh, and the drive?  That at first I didn't mind, even enjoyed?  Well now, I totally hate it.  


Ugh.  Apartment here I come, no other option.  I'm not wasting that much time in my car anymore.  I have so many better things I can be doing...like my homework on time.  *eye roll*

I can (mostly) deal with stupidity, but people wasting my time? Not so much.

So I was sitting in my Sociology class Thursday (Sociology is my minor) and the professor is going over the format and guidelines for the midterm exam.  In this discussion, and on the review page he had loaded on the projector, said, you need to buy a form thus and such scantron.  A few minutes later, a girl behind me asked, do we need a scantron?


REALLY?!?!  This was my last straw.  I'm a BIG believer in personal responsibility, and we're in University to LEARN, not play around.  I've also dealt with way too many people who miss class and expect the professor to go back over material he already did.  I had enough.  I turned around and told her the professor just went over that and it was on the review.  She said she wasn't listening.  At this point I was in shock.  That's totally fine with me if you don't want to listen, it's your tuition money, but do NOT waste my time because you don't feel like bothering.  Skip class, no one cares.  


She then proceeds to make fun of me in a not so concealing "whisper" for the next few minutes.  It was all I could do not to turn around and tell her to shut up.  


Sent me straight back to middle and high school, where this kind of thing happened regularly.  I was not well liked during that time.  At all.  


I'm proud of myself for standing up for myself, but a little backup from my professor would have been nice too...Can't wait for class on Tuesday.  


The good news from this wreck of a class period?  My political activist annoying nemesis of a classmate decided to be absent from class.  It's the little things :)


Study hard!
:)